It’s no lie that I have gained weight. I’ve been pretty open and honest about it, because well that’s all I know how to be. I can think of a million reasons/excuses why it has happened, but we all know it is due to not enough tracking and too many indulgences. (I’m looking at you, beer!)
The weight crept on slowly at first and I told myself that I would get it off in no time, but that ‘time’ never came and more weight came on. No matter how many times I tried to get my head in the game, it just wasn’t working. Life would happen, dinners would be consumed somewhere beside home, and there was SO MUCH beer.
Excuse after excuse and the mindset of just NOT WANTING TO BE IN WEIGHT LOSS MODE got me a 20 pound gain.
Yep, you read that right…. 20 pounds. That’s 6 pounds more than what I was when I gave myself some tough love.
A lot of those things that I talked about in that post are still applying at the moment (anxiety and no daily structure). I must say though, that I have really been giving it my best these last two weeks. Measuring, tracking, moving daily, and crossing off goals.
I’m doing much better than I have in quite a while. So, when I stepped on the scale last week and didn’t see any change, I was mad. Why hadn’t my hard work paid off?
I was hoping for the miraculous huge loss that you have the first week back on plan. It didn’t happen and I wanted to say “Eff it” and eat all the things. I didn’t though, I vented to some friends and went back to my day being on plan.
Not going to lie, I was still annoyed. Why would I put forth all this effort if I wasn’t going to see results? Then I remembered that I was feeling better physically and mentally. I was feeling great about the choices I was making and knew they would pay off.
Being someone who has been doing this weight loss thing for a while, I know that the scale isn’t the only measurement of success. I actually preach this regularly in my meetings. But not seeing that scale go down is SO FRUSTRATING! Especially when I have to weigh-in for my job and in order to be in good standing with my job, I have to be within my healthy weight range according to the BMI chart. That begins at 164 pounds for me, which I’m currently 10 pounds above.
I won’t get into all the details of Weight Watchers employee weigh-ins, but I will say that it is due time for that scale to go the other direction. No, I won’t be doing anything drastic to make that happen, because I’m not one to give into things like that.
While I know that my ultimate goal is to see the scale go down, I won’t be putting all my focus on that right now. Stressing out about it doesn’t make things easier. I know that I need to focus on all the things I’m doing right in life and continuing to make sure my goal digging is happening.
So, the scale has been banished to the closet and probably won’t be coming out any time soon. The plan is to only weigh in at work. I haven’t decided if it will be a weekly thing or just when my employee weigh in is due.
All I know is I can’t be stepping on that scale daily and feeling discouraged when in all reality, I’m doing the right stuff.
At the end of the day, as always, we are more than that number on the scale.