Hey everyone, welcome Danielle from Mayor of the Bux! She’s pretty awesome! I’ve been chatting with her for about a year now via BBM and have enjoyed her friendship. Today I’m doing some shopping and then hopefully going to take some pictures of B-Fry skiing. Still loving it here, haven’t decided if I want to return to Iowa or not!
I have to start out with how much I adore Brooke, she was my blackberry messenger buddy this summer and now we text one another randomly when life needed clarity or just another perspective. Of course you already know how cool she is… you’re reading this
There is a world where I am perfect. I say the right things. I wear the right clothes and I eat like a normal person and life is perfect… And then I realize that when life looks perfect… something isn’t right or I’m not being honest with myself.
I’m an emotional eater and most day’s I have control. I know that it’s a day by day process and that I’m better than food. But then there are the day’s when I’m not perfect and I forget that it’s a day by day process… I think I don’t have to write that bite down or account for the roll I just ate, and the slippery slope begins. Last year I discovered a love for the gym and boot camp and that I actually could push my body further than it had been pushed in a very long time. This year I’m going to add to that and continue to learn that I can have a healthy relationship with food.
This year I started the Weight Watchers Points Plus Program… that’s a mouthful. But I did. I needed someone, preferably a stranger, who could keep me accountable and point me in the right direction. And it’s helping, I’m preparing and planning and actually eating the good stuff.
Now, there are days when I mess up.. but it’s just a day and I know that I can start over.
I’m also learning that I have emo triggers.
1. When I get frustrated and I lose control of a situation.
2. When I am lonely
3. When I feel like something is spiraling out of my control…
4. Basically anytime I lose control of a situation.
So what does that mean? Well first I have to learn that life is messy and it’s okay. I also know that I have an incredible community of twitter’ers and bloggers who encourage and understand where I am.
AND, I am learning that it’s okay to tell people that I’m taking a proverbial step back, that I’m having a tough day… that admitting that doesn’t make me weak, but it makes me human and just like many other people. So, here is to a better year, a better plan and trusting myself a bit more. It’s kinda nice to see the healthy side of things.