Mama’s Getting Her Groove Back

Oh hello there! It has been a hot minute since I last posted anything.

I guess you could say I have been a little busy. πŸ˜‰ We’re 2 months into this whole parenting adventure and I must say while at times it’s messy, it is pretty darn incredible.

I mean, look at her….

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Gah, so crazy in love with this cutie! How could you not be? πŸ˜‰

Since we’re 2 months in, I’ve decided that it is time for be to get back on track with Weight Watchers. It’s amazing what 9 months off plan can do to you. While I’m amazed with my body and what it created, I’m more than ready to start losing much of the weight I gained.

It wasn’t easy to come to this decision as I have read in several places that losing weight and exercise can tank your milk supply if you are breastfeeding. Breastfeeding is a total challenge for us (that’s another post for another day) with my supply already being super low. (And yes, you name it, I’ve tried it.) I wasn’t sure if I wanted to risk it dropping even more.

Then I thought about what was really important in Mayla’s life. Would she rather have breastmilk or have a mama who is happy and healthy. I mean, she really can’t communicate what she wants, so I’m going answer for her. I’m assuming she wants a mama who is happy and healthy. Besides, she really doesn’t care what she is being fed as long as someone feeds her. Isn’t that how we all are? πŸ˜‰

So, for the past few weeks I have been following the Weight Watchers SmartPoints plan and have just begun to incorporate exercise again. It hasn’t been easy, but I’m really glad to be working on getting my groove back. Although that groove now is WAY different than before Mayla was born.

I’m learning how to meet my body where it is right now. Trying to remember that it isn’t the same as it was when I was 155 pounds and fit. Things have changed and I’m learning to find a new normal in all areas of our lives.

It’s a process and I’m more than happy to be figuring it all out. πŸ™‚

What’s new in your world?

I’m an after!

I woke up yesterday knowing that it was THE DAY. I made sure I looked my best because there would be pictures. πŸ˜‰

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Yesterday at work dragged! I could not wait to get out of there and get to my meeting because I just KNEW I was hitting goal. I knew even though I haven’t being weighing daily. A little doubt would creep up, but I’d tell it to shut its mouth, that I TOTALLY had this.

Finally I was out of work and rushed home to grab Mr. B. Who then kindly informed me that my in-laws would be coming to my meeting too. I already knew my mom was coming, but had no idea that my own personal posse would be there to cheer me on at the scale.

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We sat waiting for what seemed like FOREVER, but was in all reality less than 5 minutes. Haha. I corralled everyone into the building and waited for Becky’s scale to be open.

Then I stepped on the scale. And it said 151, then my dress and jewelry came off. Then it said 150.2. So, I did what any woman UTTERLY determined to hit goal would do.

I took off my bra.

So, I stood there on the scale in just a tank top and leggings and the scale read this:

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And my reaction was this:

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I freaking did it!! I hit goal!! I quickly went and put back on my clothing and pictures happened.

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My amazing leader, Becky! She's been with me pretty much through it all! I love her!

My amazing leader, Becky! She’s been with me pretty much through it all! I love her!

Then I made Mr. B hop on the scale with me. I have lost pretty much him in weight. My starting weight was 327.6. I love this picture! I used to be the size of a grown woman AND man!

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After pictures, it was time for my meeting to start. I spent time in the front row (where I always sit) and silently cried. I couldn’t believe that I had hit my goal. After 4 years I had finally done it. Becky made me speak and show off my before picture. Then my mom and mother-in-law came up to give me something.

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They have been holding on to this for a couple of months now waiting for me to hit my goal. And last night they finally got to give it to me!

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My posse left and the meeting continued. After the meeting, Mr. B was waiting in the parking lot with a gift for me. When I was getting closer to goal I told him that all I wanted was a Kate Spade purse. I would hit up Von Maur and just ogle over the purses. Well, last night, he gave me this:

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I have literally worked my ass off for this! I cannot wait to carry it and look at it knowing that I earned it! Isn’t it so pretty? πŸ˜‰

The rest of the night was spent at Mr. B’s dek hockey game which I could hardly pay attention to because my phone was just blowing up with all sorts of love from everyone. When I went to bed last night I had the hardest time falling asleep because I just didn’t want all the excitement to end. But, I woke up this morning and Mr. B promised me that I’m still awesome. πŸ˜‰

I’m still in shock a bit and have had moments of sporadic crying after an overwhelming feeling of emotion. I’m sure it’ll be that way for today for a bit. This is so awesome.

I want you all to know that I cannot thank you guys enough for all your support throughout my journey over the years. You’ve been with me for ups, downs, and all sorts of amazing things. If I could give each and every one of you a hug, I would. You all deserve it!

I freaking love you guys!!

I’m a fucking AFTER!!!! AHHHH!!

Brooke: Not On A Diet: Hitting GOAL!!

Holy *&$#!

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Holy crap guys! Look at that! I’m less than 10lbs from goal!

I am in utter shock!

When I started this journey waaaaay back in 2009, I honestly never pictured myself at goal. It was impossible to do so. I mean, I can’t remember a time when I had weighed 150lbs. I’m sure it was in my way younger years. So I had no idea what to expect and honestly, I wasn’t 100% sure I would stick it out.

But I did, through all the ups and downs, I stayed with it. And if I did veer off track, it never was for long and I would hope back on. All that persistence has paid off.

I now sit here (actually lay here since I’m typing this on my phone in bed. Lol) with goal within arm’s reach. It’s so close I can taste it and man is it sweet.

It’s so close and I’m oh so ready for it!

Oh and slightly freaking out! πŸ˜‰