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Fearing Goal

I seem to get stuck whenever a big weight loss milestone is close to happening. It happened when I was close to hitting 100lbs lost and even more so when I was trying to hit onederland. I had the goal to hit onederland before 2011 began…I didn’t hit it until the end of December 2011.

It’s like no matter what, I cannot get myself over these humps. And I’m starting to see this with trying to get my goal weight. I’ll get close to entering the 150s then weeks like a couple weeks ago happen. Or I’ll get close and then will lose suuuuuper slow. Or lose, gain, lose again.

It’s becoming frustrating and I honestly think it is some sort of mental thing. I think a little bit of it is just slacking off because I feel like the weight should come off easy. Or maybe I feel like I’ve been doing this so long, what’s a little bit longer? But what I really think is the issue is fear.

Fear of the unknown.
I have been losing weight for a quite awhile. Over 4 years now. All I’ve known in life is being overweight or losing weight. Can’t remember a time where I was actually happy with my weight. So, what happens when I just have to maintain? What’s being happy with my weight going to be like? I have no idea and that’s scary.

Fear of what’s life going to be like at goal.
Now I know that life has been always going on the whole time I’ve been losing weight. Life isn’t beginning at goal for me. But things are going to be different for me. I’ll be maintaining instead of losing. I won’t be shopping for smaller clothes all the time. Lol. I’ll be looking to accomplishing new goals and doing thing I never thought possible.

Fear of all that’s going to come along with me being at goal.
When I hit goal I plan on becoming a Weight Watchers leader. It didn’t start out as an original goal, but eventually became one. Becoming a leader not only sounds completely awesome to me, but also scares the living crap out of me. What if I suck? What if nobody comes to my meetings? What if it isn’t as awesome as I think it’ll be? All silly things I know, but it’s true.

Fear of being done losing weight.
Seriously, this is all I know. Switching my brain is going to be difficult. Especially with not wanting to see the scale continue to go down. It’s going to be a learning process and learning new things is always scary.


But I can’t let fear stop me from hitting my goal. That’s just ridiculous. Why would I let something so silly stop me from getting something I want more than anything?

I want to hit goal.
I need to hit goal.

While I’m fearing all that comes with it, I want it all at the same time. I’m ready for the switch and ready to be done losing weight.

More than anything I’m ready to be done paying money to Weight Watchers and have them start paying me instead! ;)

So, what do I need to do to get this to happen? I really need to start focusing on the reasons I want this. Sometimes I forget and just get stuck in routine.

I need to remember there are reasons for this journey. Reasons that all this hard work will be worth it. To grow old with Mr. B, to be a healthy active awesome mom, to become a leader, to inspire and help others on their own journeys, and to be in my own Weight Watchers commercial. To also eventually complete a half marathon, to do 100 real push-ups, to (maybe possibly) try out for a roller derby team, to be stronger than I am now, and to just challenge myself physically.

I’m ready to tell fear to $&€% off and get my ass to goal. I put Mission: Goal into effect back in December, but honestly forgot all about it. I’m bringing it back into effect because really, there is no other option!

Do you let fear hold you back from major things? Obviously I do in all aspects of life. That’s why I’ve been at my job for almost 8yrs. But that’s a story for another day. ;)

Be sure to come back Monday! Emily and I will be announcing a challenge for the month of March!

Happy Birthday Mr. B!

Dear Mr. B-

I cannot believe that I actually got to pick out my first husband birthday card. It’s still surreal to me sometimes that you and I are a Mr. & Mrs. But, I couldn’t be more happy! You are the man I have dreamed of all my life and I’m forever grateful that you’re the one standing by my side.

Thank you for being you! Silly, kind hearted, rugged, a beer snob and my cheerleader. You make my happy every single day and I don’t know where I would be without you. Thank you for making me feel beautiful and whole.

I love you more than anything you could ever think of, including Celebration Cake bars, green monster smoothies, and frozen yogurt from Jujube! You are my absolute everything and I can’t wait to pick out more husband birthday cards for you!

I love you Mr. B! And home is always whenever I’m with you!




WIAW Week 2

Brooke: Not On A Diet: WIAW Week 2

Here we are with week 2 in WIAW! Seems like a lot of you liked it last week! Also, someone made the suggestion to add pictures to some of my favorites. So, I did that! You will probably see that a lot of my food will be the same from last week with some variations. You will also see that Saturday was a complete blowout with way too many tortilla chips and an encounter with a chocolate fountain. Lol.

Remember: I follow Weight Watchers and do their Simply Filling program. Please do not take my word on the PointsPlus values I share. You should play it safe and calculate them yourself. :)




Oatmeal Pancake w/ PB2 “syrup” (recipe here)






-Canned Chicken
-Fat-Free Feta
-Hendrickson’s Dressing


turkeyredbeanchipoltechili Turkey, Red Bean, & Chipotle Pepper Chili (recipe from WW’s Turn Up the Flavor cookbook)






fruites Fruties (available at WW meeting locations)
Weight Watchers Celebration Bar
Cereal w/ Almond milk & banana



Regular oatmeal w/ banana, PB2, and oil


Leftover chili
Salad w/ french dressing


frixmas Steak
Corn Casserole
Cheese Potatoes







White Chocolate Strawberry yogurt
Weight Watchers Celebration Cake Bar
Weight Watchers Mint Crisp Bar



eggswchili Eggs w/ leftover chili
English muffin






-Chocolate Weight Watcher Smoothie Mix
-Almond Milk
-Chia Seeds


satxmas Fruit w/ dip
Enchilada (1/4 of one)
Veggie pizza
Tortilla chips w/ chili dip






Snacks (overindulgence!):

More tortilla chips w/ various dips
Fruit dipped in chocolate fountain
Red velvet cake w/ peppermint ice cream
Blueberry-Vanilla vodka w/ sprite
1/2 glass wine



grilledpbbanana Grilled banana & PB2 sandwich
Almond milk









chickensalad Chicken salad wrap (chicken, fat free mayo, grapes, sunflower seeds)






sundinner Salad (oranges, apples, sunflower seeds, thai dressing)
Pot roast
Baked potato









angelfoodcake Angel food cake



Oat Fit Cinnamon Roll oatmeal w/ oil


-Fat Free Feta
-Hendrickson’s dressing


fajitabowl Chicken fajita bowl:
-Brown rice
-Chicken fajita filling
-Sour cream




whitechocoyogurt White Chocolate Strawberry yogurt
Fruit (pineapple, grapes, & strawberries)



Oatmeal w/ banana, PB2, and oil


fajitasalad Salad:
-Leftover fajita filling
-Fat Free Ranch dressing







bangbangshrimp Shrimp dipped in bang bang sauce (Fat free may0 & sweet chili sauce)
Veggies tossed w/ sauce
Baked potato w/ sour cream





Pineapple Upside Down Cake yogurt
Weight Watchers Celebration Cake bar



-Vanilla Weight Watcher Smoothie Mix
-Almond Milk
-Frozen Strawberries
-Weight Watchers Celebration Cake bar


-Italian Dressing


Vanilla yogurt

There’s my eats for last week! As you can see not much different than the week before. Friday, Saturday, and Sunday dinners weren’t eaten at home, so they were a bit out of the ordinary. This week shall be interesting though! We are house/dog sitting at Mr. B’s grandparents house starting today until next Friday while they’re in California.

It’s going to be odd being out of my ‘element’, cooking in a kitchen I’m not used to, and just figuring out a lil different routine. Luckily they only live 10mins from where we do, so if I forget any essentials, I won’t have far to go to get them! We shall see how it goes!

Any exciting eats for you this week?