I finally took a HUGE leap I chatted about last time we sat down for a spell. I purchased the needed materials to get my personal training certification! I cannot tell you how good it feels to finally have it purchased. Although, I must admit there was a lot of anxiety before doing so.
I sat down at the laptop last Friday morning and for the millionth time, logged on to the ACE website. I pondered over the packages that they offered, again as I had done a million times before. I picked the Premium Package and added it to my cart (not the first time I did that either). I even made it to the point where I needed to enter my credit card information.
Then the anxiety kicked in BIG time. The “what ifs” kicked in and took over.
What if nobody wants my services?
What if I fail?
What if this is a huge waste of money?
What if I hate it?
What if….what if….
I even cried.
Yeah…it was bad.
I closed the laptop without purchasing and went to the bathroom. When I walked out, I heard a coin drop on the ground. I looked down and saw a dime on the ground.
Now this may not seem like a big deal, but a couple of Sundays ago I was at a paranormal/psychic expo. At that expo, my friend and I listened to the ladies from Divine Goddess Radio talk about listening to your intuition and signs from the Universe. During this talk they mentioned how pennies and dimes are a huge sign.
I took that dime as my sign from the Universe to just do it. I picked up the dime and ran up the stairs to talk to Mr. B. Through tears I explained how anxious everything was making me, which he of course calmed me down and told me just to go for it.
So, I went and did just that. I entered my credit card information and finally completed the purchase. I sat in that fear based thinking for quite some time and I must say now that it is done and over with, I’m fine. Let’s try to remember that the next time we are fearing something so deeply.
The materials showed up yesterday and I’m not going to lie, it feels overwhelming.
Overwhelming, but exciting as well. It has been awhile since I have had to actually study for something. I actually enjoyed school, so I don’t see the actual studying part being difficult. What I find being difficult not letting myself procrastinate! I’m super good at that! Ha.
I’m hoping that it will help me stay on task with not only this, but other areas of life as well!
So, here’s to a new adventure and the next step in my pursuit to be my version of Jillian Michaels! 😉
Have you studied for you CPT before? Any tips?
What fear have you tackled lately?