I have gotten a lot of emails lately about my loose skin and if I plan on having it removed. There have also been plenty of comments made on different sites featuring my story, that I NEED to have it removed because it’s gross. Oh people are funny! My loose skin is a part of me, not some mutant growth that holds alien eggs (yes, someone said this). Lol.
My loose skin is a result of a massive weight loss, not because I had a weight loss surgery (not that I have anything against that) or because I lost the weight too quickly (took me 4 1/2 years to lose my weight. That’s an average of a little over 1 pound a week. Healthy weight loss is .5lb to 2lbs a week). This is what can happen after losing 172 pounds.
Yes, it can be tightened up with exercise and sure there are the wraps and creams that promise miracles, but at the end of it all, surgery is the answer.
Will I have surgery?
Now before I get backlash about it, let me explain.
This loose skin isn’t fun. It makes fitting into some clothing difficult, it flaps when working out, and it causes icky rashes.
I won’t be getting skin removal surgery because I hate my body. I will be getting it because doing so will improve my quality of life in the end. Carrying this stuff around sucks, but I MUCH rather have the excess skin than the excess weight I carried around for years. I would be lying if I said I loved it all the time, there are days I get utterly mad that I have it because it makes fitting into a certain dress tough or it tugs and hurts when I work out. The worst though is the rashes I get around my belly button.
Plastic surgery isn’t something that will be happening in the near future. With insurance not covering it for the most part (you have to show medical need for the surgery and then they only will cover a very small portion), it is entirely too expensive for us at the moment. Also, Mr. B and I want to have children and I can’t see tightening everything up only to stretch it out again. I know there are people who do that, but I just don’t know if that’s the best move on my part. Honestly, I’m not sure when the surgery will happen, I just have faith that it will when the time is right. Much like everything in life.
When that time comes I know it will be a big surgery and possibly even multiple ones. I have skin to be removed not only on my stomach/abdomen, but also my arms and thighs. To think of being under for hours on end is terrifying. And then to find a reputable surgeon is a huge task in itself as well. It would be awful to have something go wrong. I’m not going to dwell on all those things right now though because it isn’t my number one priority at the moment.
For now, I’m okay with it, as I said before it’s a part of me. Just like if I had a birthmark or a third nipple, I’d love it just the same.
I will be honest though, I was hesitant to write this post. I’ve declared self-love and loving your body as is a lot lately. So, saying that I want to have the surgery put thoughts of hypocrisy in my head.
Would declaring the fact that I want the surgery conflict everything I’ve said?
Fellow blogger, Courtney talked about this on her blog as well. And I loved what she had to say:
I want to be better because I love myself enough to know I deserve it. I’m not trying to change myself into something else hoping I’ll finally deserve to love myself.
Do I love my body as it is right now?
I would be silly not to love it until it was free of loose skin. Much like not loving yourself until you lose weight, it is pointless not to love yourself in your current state. In fact, loving ourselves is part of the reason we decide to do good things for our bodies and souls.
Having the skin removal surgery is something I deserve. I have worked very hard to get the body I have and worked hard mentally to love it as well. Having the surgery again means improving the quality of my life and to me, doing that is one of the greatest forms of self-love.
I feel that any way physically and mentally that improves the quality of life that we are currently living is worth it. You CAN love yourself and still want to improve. I think that’s what life is about, always wanting to live the best version of yourself. And I truly mean YOURSELF, not how society may think you should live.
And if having the plastic surgery means that for me, then I’m doing it.
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