Monthly Archives: June 2010

Cookies

Posted on June 17, 2010 | 6 Comments

I decided to be nice and bake some cookies for everyone who is camping this weekend. I’ve always loved to bake and now I bake for others instead of just myself. I can’t eat the cookies is they’re not sitting on my counter. :o )

I went simple and made Funfetti cake mix cookies. I have avoided making these cookies for a really long time and there’s a reason why.

Let’s take a trip down memory lane….

It was January of last year and I was dating a guy. We’ll call him BD. Anyways, I met BD online towards the end of 2007, he was from Florida and he moved up to Iowa in July of 2008. We had a pretty decent relationship, well I just mostly had him whipped. Hehe

Then January 2009 happened….

I received a call from my mother saying that she had gotten on the computer to discover it had a virus. Now, they had just bought the computer and it was heavily protected with all the software to prevent viruses. Turns out someone had turned off their protectors.

BD was the last person on the computer. So, my mom automatically started blaming him. When I confronted him about it, he denied it over and over again. I was now torn between believing my mother and the guy I was in love with.
The next day I decided to bake some cookies to take my mind off things. They were Funfetti Cake Mix cookies. There was the usual cookie dough eating and 1-2 fresh out of the oven cookies. But nothing out of control.

That night my mom calls again to inform me that she had discovered a anime porn site on the computer. A rather disgusting porn site, but I’ll spare the details. The porn term was in the Google search engine between a video game BD was playing and BD’s favorite band.

Clearly, all signs pointed to BD. So, I confronted him about it and he again denied it. I was completely devastated. The guy I was in love with, discussed marriage with, and was certain was ‘The One’ was outright lying to me.

I was stupid in love and put off dumping him for a couple of days. I was an emotional wreck and in one of those days I ate to fix my broken heart.

I ate EVERY single one of those Funfetti cookies.

All 24 of them.

I remember feeling horrible about it, but ate them all anyways. I felt like it was the only thing that would make me feel better about my situation with BD. It did for a short time, then I faced the facts.

I shipped BD back to Florida where his lying ass belonged. The days after I break up I started learning things that I never knew. He had a nasty porn addiction and was very disrespectful to my father. Life is much better without BD.

The next week my mom invited to me a Weight Watchers meeting. Something I never would have done while dating BD. I’m forever grateful for that.

I’ve avoided making these cookies due to the emotions attached to them. Also the fact that after eating 2 dozen of them in one day, I really can’t stand them.

I’ve grown as a person though and I can trust myself not to eat all the cookies. I will enjoy 1-2, not 24.

I no longer emotionally eat like I used to. When I’m sad, I journal or talk to Jared and have a good cry. I do still eat out of boredom, but I’m learning to get better about that.

All I know is I’m no longer that 327lbs girl sitting all alone in an apartment eating two dozen cookies. I don’t miss that girl, she was sad and in a relationship that she never should have gotten into.

But as they say, you live and learn.

I’m glad I’m still living and still learning every single day.

Now I have some cookies to frost!

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Operation Sexification!

Posted on June 17, 2010 | 7 Comments

So over at A Merry Life, Mary is in the process of making over herself and calling it Operation Sexification.

She has a really great post on healthy skin. And has listed some great links. Seriously, go check it out.

Anyways, the whole operation got me to thinking. There are several things that could use some sexification in my life, so I’m joining the operation. :o )

First on the list is hair.

I used to be known for my hair and its craziness. I have had every style from super short to a perm. I’ve also been every color imaginable. I had blue hair when I graduated High School, it was awesome. :o )

Since then I have ‘grown up’ and now have a regular ol’ brown bob. I style it the same way every single day, I blow dry it and straighten it. So boring.

I want to learn other ways to style it. Whether that be curl it, throw it up in a ponytail, or flip it out. I just need to play with it and see what works. Maybe I’ll even dye it a somewhat crazy color. Something needs to be done though.

Next is makeup

There’s not a lot going on with my makeup, which really isn’t a bad thing. I usually wear mascara and eye liner , but nothing else.

I want to learn how to do awesome eye shadow and learn how to put eye liner on the correct way.

My sister went to school for skin care and has learned some awesome skills in makeup. Maybe she will teach me a thing or two.

Lastly, my feet

I don’t treat them as kindly as I should. I’ve never had a pedicure and in the summer wear nothing but flip flops.

I’m pretty okay in the clothing department, except footwear. To me a pair of flip flops are dress shoes. And if those don’t work, there’s always my hot pink Converse. I don’t have shoes that go with certain outfits and I don’t own a pair of heels. Wait…I do, but they’re heels that I would kill myself in.

So, I want to own a pair of cute heels and a pair of cute flats that will work with my clothes. Oh and I think I may break down and get a pedicure. I just hate having my feet touched, so we’ll see.

There you have it, my Operation Sexification list. I want to accomplish these things by my 25th birthday on July 24th. I wanna be looking hot when I go out on the town! :o )

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An Update Of Sorts

Posted on June 16, 2010 | 4 Comments

It’s been awhile since I’ve done an update of my progress. Most likely because my progress hasn’t been much.

There’s no one to blame but myself. I’ve rediscovered a love for french fries, drank far too much wine or Woodchuck, haven’t tracked everyday, haven’t ran or worked out at all, haven’t worked towards my goals and haven’t been giving this 100%.

Now it isn’t all bad. My eating hasn’t been totally out of control. I’ve been eating fairly healthy and have even tracked on days I ate horribly.

In fact I even showed a pretty decent loss this week. The loss is for two weeks since I didn’t have a meeting last week, but a loss is a loss. Wondering what it was?

I lost 2.8lbs for a total of 111.8lbs!!

I have finally gotten to 110lbs lost. I’ve been working towards this for what seems like forever. I know I would have been there weeks ago if the month of May never happened. Lol. Oh well, I’m there now and that’s all that matters.

I’m hoping to keep this loss through the next week. This weekend includes a camping trip and of course alcohol. (My mortal enemy!) I’m going to limit my drinking to just one of the nights and even volunteered myself to be the DD when we go out on Saturday. Even if I end up not being the DD, I’m not going to drink. Water with lemon will be my friend. :o )

I am worried about eating while at the campground on Friday. I’m really going to have to do some planning. Any tips?

My Social Networking Fast is tough, but not as bad as I thought it would be. I have grabbed my phone several times to tweet something, but soon remember I can’t. I have survived the first 24 hours, go me!

I will say that not tweeting has been a good thing. As for things I usually tweet are becoming ideas for blog posts. I’ve already written two others besides this one. Woot! Be on the lookout for those!

There be your update.

How are you doing?

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