Do you ever have those days where you just decide that you’re not going to stay on plan? My whole week has been like that.
It started with the gain on tuesday. I’ve let them affect me more than I’ve really admitted. It’s just so flippin frustrating. I work my ass off and I gain! Ugh.
Then I’m super stressed out with things going on in my life. My sister is moving to go back to school this year. When our lease is up in May, I’m without a roommate. So, this mean I will be living alone. I have NO clue how I’m going to be able to afford it. I’ve been doing some apartment hunting and it just stresses me out even more. Not gonna lie, been doing a lot of crying over the whole situation. I really hope it all works out. I have a feeling I’m going to need to get a 2nd job to afford it. Which is something I don’t want to do. But I guess maybe I just need to get over it. Guess we’ll see….
Being off plan doesn’t mean I’ve been eating like crap. In fact I’ve eaten pretty well minus sunday. I just haven’t gotten in all of my points, worried about my good health guidelines, worked out, or anything that I normally do. I just haven’t felt like it. Just in a funk I guess.
Sunday I was in a baking mood. I decided to make White Chocolate Macadamia Nut cookies. Probably not the greatest idea because they’re my favorite. But they’re also Jared’s favorite, so I thought I’d be nice and make them for him. That’s what I do now when I bake, I give the baked goods away. Then they’re not sitting on my counter tempting me. Well, the cookie dough tempted me, then the warm gooey cookies tempted me, and so did the other 3 cookies I had. Must say they’re great cookies though. Next time I get the urge to bake, I’m going to make mud pies. At least I won’t be tempted by the dough. :-p
I got my income tax return back the other day. I really wanted to use it to buy myself a Digital SLR camera. I’ve been dreaming of buying one for years. I have 3 film cameras that I really love, but don’t give the instant gratification I crave from digital. Well needless to say my money will not be going to a camera, but a new apartment instead. This frustrates me even more. I have to put this dream on hold yet again. Every time I get the money to afford one, something comes up. If anyone wants to donate to a camera fund, let me know. Haha
I stepped on my mom’s scale yesterday when I was over there doing laundry and according to it I’ve lost 4lbs. So, when I don’t follow plan I lose? WTH?! No worries, I won’t be sticking with the ‘off plan’ plan. I know it works and I just need to get back at it. Being off hurts no one but myself. Words of encouragement are appreciated.
I’m not sure if I should be looking forward to tuesday’s weigh in or not. At least this week if I gain, I can blame it on something. Damn cookie dough. Lol
This blog was utterly random. Hence the title of ‘Word Vomit’. I hope this week gets better. If not, I may go off the deep end.